A Praise Chorus- Jimmy Eat World

so, yup. thank goodness that the past few days haven't been dull. :)
thursday, karaoke with the girls! i was such a bad singer la, high pitched and all. hahaha. party world looked so sleazy though.... :P
i spent every last cent.
so yeap, i was totally broke when i went karaoking again with martin they all on friday night. luckily mother was kind enough to show me some pity in the form of cash. we showed our support for 5566 and all those really cheesy singers until 3am. haha. it was darn expensive though. a friggin bowl of nuts cost 5 bucks (?!).
we all went for supper after that. leong weijie treated me eh. nice of him. den he shell out the cab money too when they bundled to my house (is he like rich or sth? poor guy).
so then, when we were chilling, they were saying abt how i'm one of those good students, and i've got the environment and all to do well, and that if im still a total loser despite all that i have, i would really be a letdown.
i realised how fortunate i am.
i've had interesting conversations lately.
like one night, i was feeling all emo about myself. den so happened tis guy, who has been telling me how fat i am whenever he has the chance, was online. so i decided to ask him sth.

me: am i really very fat? answer seriously.
him: i'm gonna ignore you.
but strip everything and stand in front of the mirror. if you're fat you're fat, go do sth abt it.
if you don't think you're fat, well, good for you.
that's all i have to say. have a nice day.

he then went on to say that he thought better of me, and that he was busy so i shouldn't bug him unless it's life threatening.
is it life threatening?
wudever the case, it got me thinking.
i haven't yet found the courage to strip myself and look me in the mirror. it's kind of unnerving to see your own physical imperfections.
i think i've ruined my oh-so-confident image.
then again, it's really just a facade, isn't it?

I blogged @ 10:16 PM